how can i describe this week honestly? honestly busy i suppose
this week had been a week of test and trials, a test of perseverance, a test of going through things that's been real tedious, things that i loathe and it's all about something that no one will like.
work and tests. work and tests. work and tests. yep, they are stacking up real high and it's difficult and almost impossible to handle all these stuff on your own. project work is really stressing me out; the lack of time to study n revise what i really want to do is delaying my schedule. it's been a period of non-stop busyness, one work coming after another. an endless time - i wonder when it would stop. sometimes this is so inevitable. sometimes i wonder how could it possible - there i stand amazed that the grace of God has given me the hope and strength to pull me through. Time and again, His faithfulness towards us is just indescribable even though man fail him countless times. the strength of God to help me through each and every situation - i know it in my head that i can't do things alone but sometimes to we become skeptical of the things that God want to do in our life - we doubt and this is something im learning to avoid and trust God completely :)
this week started off with a bang! literally my friend who was supposed to do the daily announcements called me on mon morning and i was asked if i could replace her since she would be coming late for school. i was quite hesistant and went to collect the announcements only when the bell rang. it was okish - i gotta admit i was fearful - i sang the national anthem and said the pledge real loud to overcome the fear; i was hoping that time could delay even longer. i told God to help me and i guess i delivered the announcement well. it was past experiences that haunted me - i remembered in secondary schools, i did the same thing only to be embarrassed at the entire episode. but i guess that was the past, and the past can't prevail - it's the confidence that we have had in God that helps me through.
and i've learnt on making a stand this week. earlier this week i was so called reluctant and din help my teacher in doing some stuff. and he was quite unhappy about it, but i guess that situation reflected something about myself. just because my friends refuse to do it, must i follow them to please them? i think i gotta really learn to take a stand that is right, one that reflects the true me and it's something that i need the confidence to make it regardless of the pressures outside that is wrong.
and racial harmony celebrations yesterday for 2 hours was cool! yesterday marked the time with different ethnic costumes being worn - with some guys wearing singlets, sarong and slippers - the easiest and 'slackest' outfit i would say. was surprised that sab was awarded the best well-dressed female teacher in cj. she was wearing a pink sari and haha, it's cool :) another surprise that really caught not only me but most of my class was that we won some racial harmony quiz organised by the library. well most of my class din answer the questions - i did the ne questions and two of my friends filled in the rest by going to the library. cool prize we got - a hamper was awarded : chips, famous amos, chocs, sparkling juice etc. haha we started to eat them during history tutorial. econs test today was okish even though i din hv time to study for it. then rushed to ymca to attend pesa competition; well cj won 3rd overall and i guess it was great.
returned home and went for radi8 at night. started a new series and had a meaningful discussion on 'community living'. then broke into mini-grps where we discuss about how to build relationships... and this is one key area that i really gotta work at. really need help in relating to ppl i dun feel comfortable with or rather ppl who are not really friendly. it's a hurdle but i guess with the Lord guiding it would be possible. since my class is setting up a prayer group - exciting.
well it's going to be a greater workload next week. no one likes neither do i but i thank God for all that He has taught me and guided me this week :)
cheers!