radi8 yesterday was great. one week of living real, being real ... and it hasn't been that easy afterall... i guess i've failed in certain ways... and the 40 day prayer booklet really spoke to my heart.... it's all about the integrity of the heart, it's how real you really are. not easy being real here, but i'll grow to be more real and real as the Lord helps.
radi8 yesterday was great. worship took a different sense of atmosphere yesterday. it was something that pierces close to the heart. it's just being in the presence of God, longing more for Him and you know, this experience can't be expressed merely in words, only encounter can tell. and that's not the end of the whole big thing God has for each of us, it's more than that... it's to be pursuing the heart of God more n more..
today was rather slack...hadn't been doing much... had my history notes binded up. cool at least now there's space to put the other readings in my ringfile. then went to purchase some stationary stufz nearby. i wanted to get out of the house coz i felt quite stuffed in here. and as i was walking along the road, changes were right before me. sometimes we don't expect the changes to happen so fast. the nearby market is under construction, the lift outside my house is also under renovation, being baricadded by this white 'wall'. well renovation i guess... and it just spoke to me on how ppl dun like changes but it still occurs anyway. and the old goes, the new comes... and it reminded me of things in life - that i gotta move away from the comfort zone that i've settled in for quite a while and now gotta change. it ain't easy but i guess the purpose of change brings about greater meaning to the things i do. and along the way, i saw children playing... -pause for a while in my mind- well they were running around and the smile that beamed on their face... reminded me that as time passed, these kind of running and playing catching don't exist in my life anymore... when was the last time i played catching? i guess it wasn't too long ago - 2 years back if i've not mistaken where we a bunch of radi8tors went to sentosa to play catching... the police and thief game where the playground was the police and the tree was the thief's safe place... and it's the fun and memorable things that depict the life. but as things become more challenging, we have to face reality and move on. well i hope there could be a time of fun once more soon... sometimes, im juz not ready to take up the challenges that lies ahead of me, sometimes i want to go and juz chill and relax... and walking back home, seeing ppl from all walks of life. well, at that point of time, i was thinking that if each individaul was to pause for a moment in the heartland area (not orchard rd) and look at the people around u. well different people, different looks, different clothes, different smell, different things.... we are all different and we should really love the people around us and not dodge them even if we dun like them. i guess i'm still learning not to ridicule the people around u... even if u dun like, u should at least 'tahan' and not complain and murmur. in the bus to school, along the streets, in the lift etc.... and as i was thinking about this, walking towards the lift. this worker was waiting for the lift. at that point, some ppl would probably juz avoid the lift and move one side and wait for the worker to go up first. but it's really the love of God that's in me and like i said, i'm still learning... to accept and love the ppl around u.. juz simply pressing the button would be an impact to others. juz a smile on your face would make things a lot better and brighten your day. it's the love of God...
well i guess it was a meaningful walk where many thoughts prevailed in my mind. basketball game with bros and dad was great.... and i guess pe sessions in cj are alot helpful and have help improved my stamina lots...