the week started real fresh... knowing that God is with me... i dunno but i got this fear in me every morning when i woke up for the previous weeks. there was this fear that crippled me about going to school. it's about how i think this and this thing will work. and i guess that was eradicated away last week. i dunno why it happened but thank God for helping me through. cleared eom (which thankfully after painstankingly taking much time n having my bro to help me edit was accepted) and now it's left to WR n OP. 2 months more to promos.
and i juz hope that my friendship w others can improve. when sashi asked during carecell about the two names thingy, i was asking myself who and how. i knew it would be possible but i can't see the opportunites to share with them the gospel. coz my friendship with others isn't that close. it's juz such a 'hi-bye-schoolwork' thing. there are too many secrets among the cliques. and though i'm not in one of them, there's this superficial feeling i get when talking to them. there is just a short convo and that's all. after that it's continuation of talking to others. i'm praying abt it and really hope that i can communicate with them real well and ultimately i believe doors will open. and also i really need to be more outspoken.
and carecell on fri was great. it's about loving others around u and this is one of my weak point that i gotta work on. im not really a friendly person, my pr with others isn't that great. im kinda reserved and i guess i nid to be more outspoken. really praying for me to dare to make this stand. to move out and be more confident of myself.
and i realised i added a stranger on msn unintentionally. spelt my accl, ben koh's email wrongly ( i mismatched the last two letters ) .... in the end added a swedish guy. wow. i din discovered it. my bro talked to guy coz he got the contact from me. and my bro asked if he noe who he was.... and he replied back lilke who are you.... and he saes he's from sweden. wow.... and this guy probably added us thinking that we are some of his music friends... it really shocked me.
and i stand amazed and was overwhelmed at the things in life. as much as i would like to take a backseat and not want to take up any leadership roles, trying to keep mum and quiet, i sensed that God is telling me to take up such responsibilities no matter how tiring they are... i dunno but it was kinda unexpected when i got a recent leadership role. really surprised me as i din expect to even get any of the leadership postions offered. and the description of such role dun really suit me i guess... i think it could ultimately increased my pr afterall. and i'm really praying that politics - yes this lethal word - dun intefere and destroy relatioships. it's all abt teamwork here and i'm glad the rest of e committee got it. it's not about position, it's not about how great one is, it's not about hierachy, it's about relationships and working well with one another. well, another responsibility up my shoulder after a year's break (when i graduated last yr from stgabs)
today's message about temptations spoke to me. it's about daring to make a stand, choosing to make a stand. though it may be right to the world, it's better to be right with God then compromise with worldly standards. i need God to help me.
well school starting again tmr. and tests this weeek.. thank God for national day there's at least a break and yep, forest adventure on sat with the youths.
God bless!